Wow, haven't been blogging for a long time. And I didnt even know that blogger has already changed its format. Hmm, so anyway i decided to be back to blogging because theres so many things happening recently and that twitter is no longer a safe place for me to voice out my thoughts anymore, sighh. Hmm, so theres soo sooo soooo many changes to my life since the last time I blogged. People have been entering and leaving my life constantly. Met some new friends at work during the March hols, but i lost contact with them after a short while. Some are still in contact, but its obvious that we are drifting further each day. Nevertheless, what hurts me the fact that one of the most important man in my life left me. It's just so sudden, i mean like... I know things aren't gonna work out, but I really didnt expect it all to end so quickly. Not even given a chance to say bye. Sighh, i mean.. I am definitely happy that he can meet someone who can treat him better, I am really happy for him. But what really bother me the most is the fact that, he broke his promise. Perhaps, its just me, being too naive to believe that we can still remain as friend. But promise made are meant to be kept isnt it? No matter how hard it is, you still gotta try right? I did my part, but obviously he didnt bother to. It really makes me wonder if people can really be trusted. I remember just not long ago, when I was in a really depress mood after losing iakihs, he was the one who told me to believe in faith, he was the one that brought me out of the trauma. But in the end, he broke his promise and left too. This seriously make me wonder if i am really too gullible, or isit that just that I am dumb and I will never learn from my mistakes. Okay, but no matter what's wrong with me, I already know that he is no longer that friend that I used to know. Obviously he have made up his mind in deleting every single details of me from his life. And I have promised that I will remove every part of him from my life too. Rest assured, when i promise myself,  I WILL. Well, actually its not just him. Theres seriously alot of people leaving my life recently. It all just makes me wonder if theres any problem with me. I really should go and reflect upon myself. Hmm, so anyway, I have been really busy with Prelim 1 nowadays. But I have noted down in my to-do-list that one of the things I should do is to bring back all the friends that I have been drifting from. I dont want to lose anymore people in my life, and therefore, I will put in all my effort to keep them in my life forever. I must.
i know i have been neglecting alot people that really care about me, e.g. you, who really bother to come over and read my blog. P, I am really sorry that i have been disappointing you constantly all these while. Give more time okay? I am trying.