Just went and read thru our facebook conversation, stupid me. Making myself getting all emo again.

I asked you "What makes you like me?", and you replied, "I dunno, I am following my heart."
And I asked you again, "What if one day you wake up and realised that all these "love" for me are just a mistake? " You answered, "No, it wont be a mistake, trust me and believe in yourself. I love you."

I mean, why did you tell all these shit when you are not even serious about it. Why make me fucking fall for you when I was already leading a great life as a bimbo oogling at my handsome eyecandies. Why did you fucking come into my life and leave just like that?

Seriously, I don't know whats on your mind all these while. Theres one question stuck in my head forever: " Have you ever loved me before, or are you just playing with my feeling all these while?" Well, according to my knowledge of you which I have known, you are not that kind of cruel bastard that go around playing people. I know you are a nice guy, i know you never flirt and thats what I LOVE about you. But somehow, people and things around me are telling that you are not the one that I used to know. I mean, if you really did love me before, how can you bear to leave me just like that and continue leaving your life as it was all just a dream? Friends and facebook are telling me that you are leading a good life now and you're being as happy as ever. Apparently, you are not even affected by this a single bit and you have totally forgotten about me. And yes, this hurts like hell.

But of course, at the same time, I still want to see you well and happy, enjoying your life. I really hope you are. And yes, I am still worrying about you everyday.
Wondering if you are smoking more than 5 sticks per day.
Wondering if you skipping meals again.
Wondering if you have brought your jackets to keep yourself warm in air-conditioned room.
Wondering if your flu and nose problem is bugging you again.
Wondering if your neck problem is hunting you and causing you to have insomnia again.
Wondering if you are still dozing off in lessons again.
Wondering if you are gonna work hard for your finals exam.
Wondering if you are still going out to ton everynight.
Wondering if you are taking caution when you have to chu shi on rainy days.
Wondering if you are gonna see the doctor when you are not feeling well.
Well, of course all these worries can only be kept to myself. I know, you said you wanted more freedom that why you choose this path. Thats why, I told myself not to bug you with all my worries anymore. For now, I shall just stay as your secret guardian angel, guarding you and looking out for you. Thats all I can do now.